angelbabieluv @ 2009-05-25T03:29:00

2009-05-25T07:36:49Z

On top of that I have court on friday which decides the custody of my kids because their father is fighting me for them...that hurts because I love them so much I am so freaked out and I think I might be pregnant by pete who Im pretty sure hates me because of the hell I have been putting him through.And I do not even know if he loves me I am so depressed and all I wanna do is cry.

angelbabieluv @ 2009-05-25T02:19:00

2009-05-25T07:25:42Z

I don't know anymore what to expect anymore .I'm tired and iam sick....I thought I had found the one but so much for that.I ended up with more than I can handle yet again :( It started back in November of2008 about a month after I started datting Pete.His x before me made herself known to me by telling an old friend of mine that her and Pete were still having sex.After all of that finally came out he said that he would not talk to her anymore because of it and I thought we had moved on from it but we had not...as I later found out.In late March of this year.. I received a email from that same old friend...the email included a converstation between Pete and that same x In which he stated he had feelings for her still and implied that he still loved her and if that was not crushing enough I talked to his x yeah I know that was stupid of me right there but she went on to tell me how she had been talking to Pete for weeks and how she knew that I did not know that Pete was talking to her and how funny she thought that was and how I could never replace her and no matter what he will always find a way to talk to her and how he loved her and how I am just filling in for her.I honestly dont know why he lied to me I never would have known if noone had told me and I honestly don't think he would of god what is wrong with me why do men who say they love me lie to me?

Now as of a week ago she friend requested me under a new myspace name saying that she is four months pregnant by Pete.I do not know who to believe or what to do..I am sooo sad and it angers me I know I pushing him away but it is because I do not know if are whole relationship has been a lie.I mean does he really love me? What is wrong with me?This whole thing has just crushed me and my kids just love him:(and today brandon Pete's son was saying how his dad was in his bedroom with his x which hurts and how he liked his dads x too...

On another subject my bestfriend wayne is not allowed to to talk to me because his wife is a inscure bitch.She said I use her as I babysitting service because I asked her to babysit my kids...I do not get that beacuse I asked her to only one time and she said no..So I am lost on that one more or less he is not allowed to talk to me because Iam a girl.Which sucks because now I have no one to turn to.

Life

2008-04-27T00:27:14Z

My life has gone in a totally different derection than I thought it would.So, that's why I got a live journal to vent about it b/c myspace has to much drama..